just when i thought that guy is super wonderful and he might be interested in me,
he said he wasn't quite sure if he's gay or not...
it sorta crushed my heart... cux... i do like him a lot.....
the dancing, chatting and sitting together was soooo great...
but the reason could be he is gay, so he is nice to me...
i don't know what to do...

Sometimes it's a pressure when everybody around me got a boyfriend.. why? because other people would assume you have bf as well... i dont like this thought.
i just finished my bachelor degree, and people assume that you always find a boyfriend in university. And serious, when you leave school, most of the guys are taken, and when you go to work, those people usually already got their partners. So when am i possibly find a boyfriend?
I have people asking me, oh, do you have a boyfriend now?
i always answer, no, not yet.
Then usually it will be an awkward silence.. before they answer.. oh..it's not that necessary for now right?
i do want a boyfriend, but maybe i am setting a high standard, so i couldn't find a boyfriend, is that my fault?

Is it fast to fall in love with a guy that you have only met him last week... like thursday..
i know this guy for like a week and he is actually a stranger to me..
but i m interested in him and i just wanted to know him better..

is there something wrong with me?

i have been after guys i like for so many times..
most of the times i think guys are necessary to make my life complete...
(not in a bad way... just i love being in love... i love dating.. )
i am okay with my singleton life.. but.. wanting to have a boyfriend is no sin right?
i just want to know him better and don't wanna scare him away..